MR NY

your fingers do more than taunt me with keystrokes... your mouth does more than bite your lip while relaying... your picture taunts me... pussy throbbing... i can feel myself flow for you... i cant keep my hand away from the heat... the screen shows me what seems farther than the feeling... inside myself i mimick the motions you tell me too... i listen to the commands... you want me ... given... save it for me... i earned it... if you could see the shine on my thighs... taste the sugar on my fingers...feel me tighten around hands that should be yours... your lip between teeth that can only fiend for the bite... the choke of your hand.... i want you deeper than i go... tighten around you so you can feel the pulse... the beat youll fuck me too... my throat is empty with a notion... i wanna taste me off the tip... come feel the inside... leak ... feed her she is hungry... c'mere

countdown

a sheild overhead and you have warmth... my ability to move mountains seems far gone...there is no "forward"... being past this finds me cold... passed away.
the light i carried is dim if not extinguished... my only heat is too far to feel... distance deals the cruelest hand... but his words melt me... and my resolve... if arms were a refuge... his are mine. ill bitch down if thats what she needs to feel above the choke... ability becomes sand, easy slip thru bloody fingers... i held on as long as i could.... but bones break... the white is visible... he told me to purge... he told me to release... listening has never come easy... but his fingers give unquestionable orders... so now in the aftermath... maternal strength reduced to a smolder... ill tolerate your face... ill ignore the lash of your tongue... the hour glass is turned... count the grains... you are on borrowed time... tick tock cunt... its coming... and soon ill be above it...

Tonight feels like You

I sent word,warrant and sirens,ink and whispers... you know the effort means more.Paper and lines trying to speak.The moon may hold us but there is no way to relay the "I love you's"....Look past the matter, I told you I'd be there...There was never a moment I thought you'd be kept from the sky.If you want to know, the night is hot like you,wet like me and loud the way we used to be.

BEYOND ME

FUCK.....again and again....if the room would stop around me then id have to cope with the downward spiral i'm on.spark,inhale... its warm but i'm freezing.sugar and alcohol is what got me here in the first place.if lips could just be lips and not a craving... if,if,if....then you'd just be that sound in the corner...the laugh behind some story that blends into nothing noticeable.but you're not and i can still drink the room dizzy so.... soFUCK!!!!!

SSSSSSSHHHHHHH...

I'm floored...under and you left me here.you made the Big Entrance,returned with a vengeance...how far is it from Her to Here?**Feel Feel Findfeel bad about what you feel for me & find that you and i are still on fire.it's down...me and that wall i built.you are a trial by weakness,still fresh off some heart string...you're only swelling for the way that i felt...and its that part of you that matters least.**YOU DONT DO SECRETS BUT I'D BE A GOOD ONE.....

The Book of James

Im sure you know that I know...You feel guilty to me, even thru the miles.You had some time to fill in some blanks and my name fit...Now the world is back outside your door and someone else seems sweeter.I wont be here tomorrow , you are too careless with my heart.You wont pick up the line to admit that you let your mouth run away with you... again.And I am always where it runs too.Your hopes,dreams,tears and seldom moments of sobriety...I gave you love before violence, words in place of curses.Believing in you has never stopped hurting.I have struggled for you since i first walked thru your door.The hand you strung me along by is broken.The heart you love for tug of war is wrung.Sadly, I don't think losing hand or heart will phase you....What's to lose in a backup? You seem to stop short of killing me.And after all this time - you still don't know my voice.That says it all.

STICKS OF FIRE

if home is where the heart is then mine is all over this city.shoutouts to skylines,sunrise on skyscrapers... when the day shuts down we light the town and find a way to forget time until morning.the bay is what i'll always have left7th at 11and tomorrow a corner i havent hid in before......fuckin Tampa man... haha...

THE MONSTER WAS A METAPHOR

By some chance, on our ill-fated night,the busy behind us seemed to keep you away from me... better i not hear you speak... i almost got away.unfortunate circumstance called for a favor and who should answer...?you found the opportunity to lend me a smile and i liked the way yours fit.never you. no ...never. that face, a smile like that rarely connects to mine.word was hot and found its way back to burn my resolve... i liked you.too late to stop me, too soon to admit that i already knew your crash and burn routine.the waiting was the worst part... and your desperate, still sweet ,attempt to pull back.i didnt know that the heart you say made you stumble had to be wrapped in a prize to keep you on your knees.

FOR ATTENTION

him, he, his...and each could belong to a different feeling.A face that makes knees weak.... and in front of me,one means more than the other.If it wasn't him, it was his fault .... then he pulled the last punch.Keeping faces straightin his heat...him and the teeth behind some words...and the lips he has to push as weapons.

FIRE AT BAYLOR

there was a light today and the sun didnt matter.dim if fluorescent then a corner turned and your part of it all went black.i start to forget that you dont know how to keep me lit.watching me flicker used to get you off ...but you have burned thru the whole of it...Im still smoldering with fingerprints that belong on someone else.

HIM

Dreams can race reality.... neck and neck...You blur the line... look who's winning???Sidelined and Im tring to keep up with the feeling....Fast enough to bring me up...To then realize that i have been swept......... and the ground was never there.

TERROR

Red eye ... wet cheek.... heart wrung... hands empty...side vacant....Racing to keep up,the keys keep us on delay......And if love was ever a battle, I am already starting to scar.Leaving your mark on me and a wound for me to keep fresh.The sting keeps you on me....A word off the tip, our tongue's tied with more than a word can convey.All you have is a memory... all I have is the thought of a taste...Its my craving for a craving... A taste that could seem familiar if not for the miles.... Sleeve back... pretty wrist... deep enough.... but ill keep me for you... its just the slice that keeps me off the lonely...

picking locks with scalpels

Tell me one more thing...Say it just like that...Make your mouth put me on my knees,heart for heart- hole open -handing you what i dont want anymore.Your's still pulsing and warm... like the words that we weave.Reach across and put it in me - pull you down and place it softly...A rythym i can't breathe to...and you would whisper thru the gasps.Time-Keeper, you settle the beat...drop me into your groove....*Your heart seems more precious than mine...I'm watching...smile for miles, struggling to find my pace... and then we collide...Your heart is still bleeding from the new hole in my chest.My heart seems to settle into you...

STATUE

Some kind of fuck you...Good show,they're still clapping...With a performance so convincing- it looks as if you've left me needing...but looks can be decieving.I could never tell you when or what, because you never drew the line too clear.You saw the inch,declined the mile, now look at what you have left me here...An outstanding show...a fucking spectacle for the ages...What's left to say? ... You deserve an award for the role that you play...Take a bow on your way out...

they call him HEARTLESS

How kind of you...so fuckin sweet of you...to be so thoughtful too... Save your spare time, throw me the change, the moments you can afford to throw away......But beggars can't be choosers can they? You know the fix begets the craving. If there is one thing that I can't say no too.... Its the shine of the price,gleam of your time and the light I pretend you lend me.... ....Its how deep you go-theres a bottom but you found a below- use those teeth to bite the lip that won't tell me what I want to know... ... Its the lies you try to keep me blind by thru which I am able to see the ferver you keep from her ...when you're inside of me, you can't hide.... Noone comes closer...

NECTAR

Warm up, I'm practice.... see what your heart is capable of inflicting.What's it sound like when i break?Was it sweet enough to keep you chasing the echo of rupture?Has it ever looked so pleasing? My eyes make sadness seem like sugar and you love to feed off the feeling....

THE WOUND A WORD CAN LEAVE

Ill be the only one... Let me ignore the stars on my own... I've seen your back more than I've seen your eyes. You manage to walk away but never stand tall. Was it a beautiful release? When our fingers lost grip and I slipped away, was it as if the moment slowed down? You never could tell the sky from the time beneath you... So.. Really, was it me falling or... Was it you??? I doubt your eyes have adjusted to the smoke. I can't force the breath anynore... We have been shallow on the inhale for too long. You and I have been saying goodbye since we first said hello... And this is my final farwell... I'm glad you think that mine is a sweet memory...and I hope you fucking miss the taste. XXXXXXX

SHEILD

Here it is and it fits... The whole world between hands that I'm regaining. I want you to see how strong I am...and what it takes to hold you up... I am here but its far...there is nothing to run away from but I still want too... A notion is all we can say that we are...you're too fast to be bothered and I fucking hate that I miss you...

LIQUID COURAGE

We would be the last at the edge... Simple tumble off the earth, jumping seems like surrender,let the edge push me.....you make me unsteady as it is... There shouldn't be anyone following us.... Here, at the end that seems more brand new... I find no shadow, which explains why you're so familiar.... No surprise! I caught you mimicking my movements. I took the moment before you could give me the thought. There is no bottom to this fall so the twilight is all I'll have left. ..... You shouldn't love me, throw that gesture away....the beat of heart is being wasted in calling for me. ..... Head above heart, too far to touch anyone but you... The stars mock the living we do... Trick on time for sunset.....

FULL PROOF

She told me to thank you for the right kind of courage... It made it easier to push down and drag just a little deeper... To swallow the handful and make this try the keeper... full proof like her bottle ... She always was such a heavy sleeper... Watching her close her eyes was like opening my own.... And for that moment alone,I saw you as she did... Your hands were awfully red,but I couldnt find her blood on the walls... I've always known you were fond of shiny things... I just hadn't added sharp to the list... What a worthy reason to cut... To steal the look in her eyes... That look was all I recognized in her... and now I'm reaching for you... You and those red,wet hands... I always confuse the passion... At some point she'll start to fade from your face and ill see you for what you took... So use your slice for all its worth....

<3

given no recovery,ill just have to learn to handle your every moment...i love you and you know it but i wont part my lips to tell you...yet...if a return didnt leap from your tongue i'd be without comfort bc im betting every tomorrow on that feeling....your choice made me a believer and i have never put faith in anything with a whole heart...but here it is, the entire beating mess...there isnt a want in me for anything more...
i begged...
plea's sent to no god in particular carry a fear of never being answered.... but someone must have been listening....because here you are....

DAI

SO NOW THERE'S YOU AND IM WASTED...SPUN AROUND THE ROOM WE'RE IN...FIGHTING IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE ANYMORE.I HAVE ALL BUT JUMPED AND BEGUN THE FALL, TAKING YOU DOWN WITH ME...THE THOUGHT OF NO BOTTOM SCARES THE FUCK OUT OF ME...ALWAYS CHASING YOUR THRILL.THERE IS NOTHING IN MY POCKETS, IM LITTLE MORE THAN A NAME...BUT WITH YOU I'VE GOT MORE TO LOSE THAN THE HEART YOU'D LEAVE BROKEN....TOMORROW HAS YOUR PROFILE...WHAT A SMILE FOR THE SUNRISE...

KNIFED

Climb and I'll....
Reach your level since you stooped to mine...
Maybe you will find less of me at the top and want more...
Your hands, your arms ... seem something I have to earn.
Precious you... now I have come and taken your days.
You don't want me here... cheeks burning red, showing none for saved face...
I want to ask but I have been so quickly reminded... its the heat and you need distance.
I just wanna be your girl... stay...

CADENCE

so it seems everyone can see this string around my heart except me...know just when to snatch...keeping the knot ever-so tight...just enough to shallow a breath.i thought ripping it from my sleeve would spare me...i knew i should have thrown it away...but the hole in my chest was close and empty...now its beating again...rythym like a promise...sounds like hope....

BAIT

...save me the poison and the tongue behind the lashing...... i know how you taste, your mouth doesnt have to force it......insult on injury with a little salt in the wound, its open for you......take your chance and stick it... i could be weak enough to let you...

jigsaw

There is no warning shot...No tale of caution...You find the piece, and the puzzle becomes a picture...you fit ... the question was answered...now im in the middle of our pieces...there is no way for me to remember their place...i should have never looked at your pictures... the ones where i look happy... and you look so .... so.... i dont fucking know...but you were mine... everything i do now is tainted with you... i wish it was as easy as "release"...my hand doesnt know its broken... my heart doesnt know its wrung...im still saturated with you...this in-between is a blur.. a filler... in a perfect world... thats what you said... me and you..if you would put us back together... if i could...